Inner Thoughts/Pensamientos Internos

Yesterday evening, I stepped out to my yard. I could see a clear sky yet the sky wasn't clear enough. It had been raining on and off that day and I could clearly see that the sun wanted to come out but decided to stay home instead. The clouds making these wonderful shapes on the sky with red and purple tones on the background. As I stayed there contemplating and trying to figure out the shapes of the sky, I felt the same way about my life. I felt I was trying to figure out everything that was going on with my head. I had a minute of frustration and without even realizing, I started crying. I didn't know what was going on. I had everything figured out, or at least I thought I did. I said to myself, “You are just human, you can make mistakes, its OK”. Is it? Is it OK to make mistakes? Then suddenly, through the tears in my eyes, I was able to feel the sun, I wasn't able to see it because of my tears, but I sure could feel its warmth. I realized then, that I was going to be OK. I would survive to this, and even when my whole life wasn't figured out, I would be fine. I wasn't able to see the sun, but I could feel it. I would just keep walking and I would keep my head up high. One thing I was sure, I would NOT stop walking…ever.

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Ayer en la tarde, salí a mi patio. Podía ver un cielo claro y a pesar de eso, no estaba tan claro. Había estado lloviendo durante el día y era obvio que el sol quería salir pero mejor decidió quedarse en casa. Las nubes formando estas figuras maravillosas en el cielo con tonos rojos y morados en el fondo. Mientras me quedaba contemplando y tratando de averiguar las formas en el cielo, me sentí igual con mi vida. Sentí que estaba tratando de averiguar todo lo que estaba pasando con mi cabeza. Tuve un minuto de frustración y sin darme cuenta, empecé a llorar. No sabía lo que estaba pasando. Se suponía que yo tenía todo averiguado, o por lo menos yo pensaba así. Me dije, “Solo eres humana, puedes cometer errores, estarás bien”. ¿Puedo cometer errores? ¿Estaré bien? Entonces de repente, a través de las lágrimas en mis ojos, pude sentir el sol. No podía verlo por las lágrimas, pero definitivamente pude sentir su calor. Entonces me di cuenta que yo estaría bien. No podía ver el sol, pero lo podía sentir. Seguiría caminando hacia adelante y mantendría mi cabeza en alto. De una cosa estaba segura, NO dejaría de caminar… nunca.